living completely

There are , if you will,dimensions to our living,to our lives, where we may have once lived in the frontline of everything going on around us,we may now stand afar off.We must not be dis illusioned into thinking we have somehow become less important in our living,for all of life,every dimension we come into ,is as important as the one before,it is life as a whole ,complete.It is when we try to stay in one position or move out of position, out of time,that the meaning of our living is lost,thrown into chaos. I live afar off,but live in that position completely.LIFE IS A WONDERFUL GIFT ESPECIALLY WHEN SURRENDERED TO THE "GIVER OF LIFE"

time out

been in new mexico since last monday,and loving every breath of it !!we have had beautiful snow twice ,lots of cold ,19 degrees. spending time with our dearest friends,robert and gaylene ,in artesia and ruidoso this weekend. going to the walk through bethleham in ruidoso on saturday,it will be blistery coldwith lots of snow,so exciteing. god is so good to give me this special time in my home land,i feel like i 'm at home when i enter new mexico,when i enter gaylene's home. this is time out for me,just wish it could last longer.

angry!

Angry that little people have to be burdened with the world we big people have ,and do ,give them!

Overview of Major Future Events

Overview of Major Future Events

the road less traveled

today just a day away from who knows what? every day full of it's own cares,it's own disappointments, it's own blessings,none to behold until that day comes. The road less traveled is where i want to be,at least the road less traveled by me.

Things look different now

I can't help but notice how different things look than they did a few years back! I mean really ,did I ever think my Grand children may never know the beautiful words to"amazing grace" or "nothing but the blood of Jesus"? What about the course "turn your eyes upon Jesus"or " Oh how I love Jesus"? We are admonished to take our eyes off the prize this world offers and look to the prize of the higher calling of Jesus.We can keep seeking the thrills of life on this earth, the temporary fixes, or we can look to the author and finisher of our faith. Did I , did you ,ever think there would be a time in yours and my life when our children would be afraid to speak out publicly for the cause of Christ? When I gave my heart to Christ I was 6 years old and was so excited about His love for me ,and the story of His second coming ,that I had a picture of the rapture of the church and carried it around to tell other children about salvation. Did I ever think there would be a time I would see christians afraid or ashamed to say they were christian? This world has twisted our minds to think only of the here and now, so we can't possibly be prepared for our eternity. Turn your eyes upon Jesus,look full in His wonderful face ,and the things of earth will grow strangely dim ,in the light of His glory and grace. "Things " certainly do look different than they use to,but not my Jesus!! No,HE just looks better and better to me!

weary

Do you ever just wAKE UP SOME MORNINGS STILL CONNECTED TO THOUGHTS OF YESTERDAYS BUSINESS?Just wishing you could grab the thoughts by the throat,sling them around a few times ,throw them high into "outof sight"? Do you ever just wish for once a subject could be closed? Peace would come and wash away the reality?Do you think for one moment you just might be able to crumple those thoughts into tightly wadded up matter and say "it doesn't matter?"I really can't change this by thinking of it,trying to figure it out,becoming prisoner to it's control of my every moment! some thoughts take such a grip that the body begins to wither beneath the load,the soul begins to slide into obscurity,the heart!!!!! becomes faint ,and a shell of your person squints it's eyes,,only to close them back again ,looking for something to have changed. You know ,but can't grasp truth.You invite peace,but the storm blinds your invitation. Hold on, let go,be still,take no thought, focus,what to do?? But............ a still small whisper, almost silent but viable,speaks ,one more time,"I am!! Iam and will always be with you .I will not leave you to be drowned in this overwhelming time of your shallow breathing.I can not leave you like this!!! He whispers again, I love you too much to let this be your end.

connected at the heart ,India and me

There are people in our life time and then there are PEOPLE !!!!! You know the ones, always in the corner of your mind ,always feeling your reality with you . They can be miles away yet no more than a thought away. We connect differently to each parent ,child, sister ,brother ,on and on as life brings each to us. There is a young lady in my hearts mind every moment of every day, never more than a thought away. She stands so tall not only in stature but in spirit. She doesn't back down on what she believes nor does she let you change her mind.She's like a breath of assurance and confidence when she enters the room ,a "every thing will be alright" kind of girl. The first time I saw her she was crying her way into this world. I took her tiny hand in mine and we both knew at that very moment we would be holding hands forever. India and I are connected at the heart! my first Granddaughter. If I feel off track she ,in all her realness, pulls me back . You don't ask what she thinks of a situation unless you can take the truth. India is beautiful !!! she turns every head but never seems to notice. I love the quiet confident spirit she has and yet she allows her weak moments to be real too. She is my hero!!!!!

Peace

It really is a place inside your soul "PEACE" We want to give credit to the things around us,serene setting, quiet, the absence of turmoil. This is such an illussion to the truth of what peace is.Peace is the absence of fear, the ability to let go of all that isn't yours to take care of anyway. Peace is the strength to turn control over ,and to trust in God who is trustworthy and able to keep all you commit to Him. Peace is the quiet inside you when your heart is breaking and no one notices or cares that you are broken. Peace is holding on to the faith you have in what you can not see.Peace says yes and whispers assurrance to you when others say the situation is impossible and will never change.Peace is such a part of what you believe in ,the very foundation of your conviction ,that it can't be taken from you, it has to be surrendered. Peace is simply and wonderfully given ,by God ,my friend, to you . Accept the peace of God today and every day , in the storm that rages within you, and in the greener pastures. Don't surrender ,to any situation , to any voice that speaks any other than the peace of God into your spirit. Now...go and take on the day!!!!

Words with purpose

Love Forgive Trust let go Choose Be Accept Try Try again And again Pick up Walk Forward Look ahead Ask Grateful Thankful SMILE laugh laugh laugh Care Take care antisipate surrender don't surrender Hold on (or not ) strength courage boundaries Play Work Worship FAMILY FRIENDS Value GOD persistence Relax Enjoy Self -control Patience Gentle Kindness Sleep Eat Rest Talk and talk some more Work it out Listen Quiet be Still Know be Sure Time take Time make Time Seconds Minutes Hours Days Weeks Months Years How ever long it takes Forever Just a breath away LIFE LIVE LIFE

just do something!

Taken back a few notches ,when I feel I have no control over the frustrations and pain someone else is struggling in."Do any thing,save to lie down and die!"Nathaniel Hawthorne My first response is to start giving advise,not a good thing ,most don't want advise.Besides ,who am I to think my answers are always right?So... what to do when you get dragged into other folks business? Drag yourself back out!!!!!!

life for real

It was 41 years ago today I married the man of my youthful dreams.We met when I was only 14,innocent, and much younger than I thought I was. Good friends for 3 long years, he decided I might be a girl to marry ,and so we did. Yeah, at 17 years old I was married !! He went to Viet Nam 3 weeks later and that was a growing up time for us both. Over tall mountains, through deep valleys, in and out of ditches,together. And today I can say I love him more.

not to worry

"Not to worry" this is a quote of my precious Stepmom's ,Tamar.And she says it with such conviction you really believe worry is so out of place . What is it we are instructed, take no thought for the tomorrow ,there's enough troubles for today?

innocence

I've been blessed to have a little 1 year old grand daughter in my care this week. You forget there is such a thing as innocence ,until a baby is around. However, by one a child has already learned how to pull the strings ,should i dare to say, minipulate? now when is this no longer an innocent behavior? i think maybe that's up to those in charge ,the ones directing them to right and wrong .no wonder there is so much confusion these days in the minds of the young, we forget to teach and then get angry when we see out of control children. I say they are innocent until we teach,show them a different way. It falls on our shoulders ,we who are not so innocent,but would rather blame the kid. We must step up to the plate and help build character. Well i am blessed at her innocense ,i am blessed to say she's mine!

heart

I guess a broken heart is better than no heart at all .Tears are for healing and drowning out the thoughts.

doing what's best?

We want to always do what we think is best for ourselves and the people we love. Being we don't know all that's going on from every angle ,it's not easy being sure htat our choices are the best every time. Grace is such a big issue for me . I have a hard time with making others take responsibility for their actions because I just want to show grace. I know this doesn't teach much of a lesson, or ... does it?I just want life to be simpler and more peaceful, more accepting of the imperfections of one another. more tolerance and room for the young to grow into loving ,responsible adults. Remembering that none of us are a finished product yet. Lots of growing to do and with that comes disappointment,you know ,not doing it right most of the time. I need the family and friends I have, to know I love them,YOU,sooooooooo much more yhan you know!

unsure

sometimes I feel so unsure. I start doubting my ability to discern what's really going on in the hearts of others. I know its not mine to understand ,but it would make communication so much simpler. The walls of insecurity in relationships could be torn down if only the heart could be seen. So glad God does see the heart of us all and loves us anyway. I want to believe it would be easier if we knew all the answers ,maybe not.

what to do?

When you love someone so much but ,can't get through to them , when you want to fix things for someone who won't listen, when you know life could be easier for them if they would .What to do when you see the struggle on their face, but can't do anything about it.I would that all the questions to life had clear answers .

connecting

I remember the year 1968 so well ,and what a task it was to reach someone from a distance. My husband went to Viet Nam 3 weeks after we were married. That was when you bought air mail stamps and hoped your letters made it to there destination. Also, we talked once,him there ,me here, by phone ,actually by radio,you know ,over,hello over. And for Christmas that year I sent him a tape recorder so he and I could send tapes to each other, it was such a awesome connection for the two of us. Still we wrote long letters, once over 30 pages!! Today the guys at war or in far away places,serving our country, can instantly send a message.WOW .......I don't know.... waiting every day for my sweethearts letters, listening to those tapes over and over again and again,some how we really got to know each other,really connected. I never thought then that a day would come when I could say those days were happy ones,but they were.Today,41 years later, we are happily together.Iguess our first year we connected pretty well!!!!!!

should have edited that last post ,misspelled their as there whom.......

why is it?

.....that we are so afraid to let others know ,we are broken and weak,lonely,struggling to just face the thoughts inside our heads ,let alone to face the moment of reality? why is it we stay inside our walls of conflict ,going into a place of deeper lonliness ,breathing shallow breathes of fear? why can't we just reach up and out of self to oneanother, giving them permission to reach out to us in there need as well? this life is certainly too short to fake it. If we were intended to stand alone , why didn't God just stop at Adam?

God's creation

today a baby was born to nathan and misti ,Addison Blu , at 8lbs. 3oz. 21 in. long. awe sweet wonder!!!!! great things in store for us all with new life breathed into our family

heart speaking

Today I talk from my heart and most of the time I do.Troubled by the judgement of the majority, being the condition of all. WE the people are certainly not equal in one anothers eyes but we are in the eyes of God ,as His creation. We don't all stand in His presense the same because we have either chosen to accept His forgiveness and grace ,or not.This by no means makes us "better than" if we are walking His life, it does give us His blessing and favor.I haven't done anything to earn God's love ,grace,or favor on my life,He freely gave it as I chose His salvation ,His forgiveness.It humbles me, all He does and has done for me ,knowing I can never repay Him.However, if I could it, would so cheapen this whole life in Him.That's what the world asks of us,earn their approval ,and just maybe your in. We use this same philosophy often times in our churches and it's so far from the way Jesus walked His walk. I fall short so often.

getting older

..THERE are some things about getting older that give a sense of security.
the need to compete,not really, you pretty much know who you are and what your limitations are. Time is something you use instead of waste,you've seen so much ,you can relate . Some how you seem to see everyone in a different light,not so much judge but listener.We all change as we grow older ,some ways for the better,some not so good. I notice the age spots ,the stiff joints,less than super thick,shiney hair, curves not in the same places ,and I smile. This is only the shell that houses the real me. If only you could see past this shell you would walk into a world of delight!!! A world that has suffered heartache,but not to be destroyed. A world full of passion,living out the joy of love ,motherhood, daughter , sister and friend, None of this to perfection ,but to the reaching out for the best in me.Finding the best companion for a life time at the age of six ,Jesus.That is the one choice I made that has carried me through every high and every low life has had. Knowing Jesus keeps me from having to look behind my back, from fearing death or life. He loves me in spite of myself, thats a friend. He already knows a plan for me , knew from the beginning, and I just have to listen as He directs.What could be better? As I get older I find it so much easier to trust everything's going to be alright!!!!!!

just thinking

sorting out thoughts can be kind of like searching for a needle in deep shag carpet. you know you've come up on something when the pain starts. then what to do?

time lost

Sunday dinner with family ,homecooked, has seemingly become a lost art. maybe Ishould say lost tradition. Is it because we are too busy or have we decided family closeness isn't enjoyable anymore? Have we let the differences come between us? What is the definition of family today?Each one going his own way,reaching out for his "dreams"? disconnecting ? Life can't be lived fully without loving others. Nor can there be completeness without shareing the good and bad of family. Today our family shared Sunday dinner at our home,and it seemed so right.

control

Maybe the need to fix someone elses pain is fhe need to fix my own.

live or be lived

life has a way of living us or.....we choose to live our life. Touching others ,or not,in their joy or pain. Being available to hear the noise around us ,the cries to be noticed ,or not. It can be lived behind four walls ,alone ,saying this is life the way I want . Waking up to no voice to be heard but our own. Day by day wandering who or what might be past these four walls.We can live not noticing or being noticed. Crying alone,not to heard,no one knowing,life the way you want it?Or......wipeing the tears of a giveing up and lonely person just like yourself. Putting hope into a seemingly lost situation. Living past yourself ,your wants ,and seeing the need in someone else. Then laying your head to rest at night in peace ,knowing someone else will too.