weary

Do you ever just wAKE UP SOME MORNINGS STILL CONNECTED TO THOUGHTS OF YESTERDAYS BUSINESS?Just wishing you could grab the thoughts by the throat,sling them around a few times ,throw them high into "outof sight"? Do you ever just wish for once a subject could be closed? Peace would come and wash away the reality?Do you think for one moment you just might be able to crumple those thoughts into tightly wadded up matter and say "it doesn't matter?"I really can't change this by thinking of it,trying to figure it out,becoming prisoner to it's control of my every moment! some thoughts take such a grip that the body begins to wither beneath the load,the soul begins to slide into obscurity,the heart!!!!! becomes faint ,and a shell of your person squints it's eyes,,only to close them back again ,looking for something to have changed. You know ,but can't grasp truth.You invite peace,but the storm blinds your invitation. Hold on, let go,be still,take no thought, focus,what to do?? But............ a still small whisper, almost silent but viable,speaks ,one more time,"I am!! Iam and will always be with you .I will not leave you to be drowned in this overwhelming time of your shallow breathing.I can not leave you like this!!! He whispers again, I love you too much to let this be your end.