New mexico

It is July and we have traveled so many roads since I blogged last.Literally,we have been in and out of desert roads,around and around mountains,and have seen the most beautiful sights we could dream of!this change in our lives was a change we had hoped for but wasn't sure how it could happen.We stepped out!Believe me,not without fear and looking back sometimes.Change is one of the hardest places in life to walk through,and yet always important if we are going to grow.The hardest part of this change for us was the leaving our children,grandchildren,sisters and brother behind.I realize that I almost thought if I wasn't close by, God couldn't take care of them,that's how I lived anyway.I had put myself in a position of "i can take care of that",no matter how big the problem,no matter how much or what it took.Yes,it became unhealthy, mostly for the ones i hovered over.I have a tendency to call it love when ,looking at the situation in the eyes of truth,it's more the need to control.This is only one of the things I have had to search out about me on this journey of life changes.I feel overwhelmed at how self righteous a life can become in the disguise of love.Oh well,we are loving New Mex.I was raised here until the age of fourteen,And strange as it seems to others,I feel like I've come home.I want to share this time of life with the children and grands and all the rest of family and friends.I want to be a better mom,wife,Nana.I want to see the sunset of my life make a difference for the better.And I want to walk into that sunset with a sense of knowing I came home to become a better me.