God's creation

today a baby was born to nathan and misti ,Addison Blu , at 8lbs. 3oz. 21 in. long. awe sweet wonder!!!!! great things in store for us all with new life breathed into our family

heart speaking

Today I talk from my heart and most of the time I do.Troubled by the judgement of the majority, being the condition of all. WE the people are certainly not equal in one anothers eyes but we are in the eyes of God ,as His creation. We don't all stand in His presense the same because we have either chosen to accept His forgiveness and grace ,or not.This by no means makes us "better than" if we are walking His life, it does give us His blessing and favor.I haven't done anything to earn God's love ,grace,or favor on my life,He freely gave it as I chose His salvation ,His forgiveness.It humbles me, all He does and has done for me ,knowing I can never repay Him.However, if I could it, would so cheapen this whole life in Him.That's what the world asks of us,earn their approval ,and just maybe your in. We use this same philosophy often times in our churches and it's so far from the way Jesus walked His walk. I fall short so often.

getting older

..THERE are some things about getting older that give a sense of security.
the need to compete,not really, you pretty much know who you are and what your limitations are. Time is something you use instead of waste,you've seen so much ,you can relate . Some how you seem to see everyone in a different light,not so much judge but listener.We all change as we grow older ,some ways for the better,some not so good. I notice the age spots ,the stiff joints,less than super thick,shiney hair, curves not in the same places ,and I smile. This is only the shell that houses the real me. If only you could see past this shell you would walk into a world of delight!!! A world that has suffered heartache,but not to be destroyed. A world full of passion,living out the joy of love ,motherhood, daughter , sister and friend, None of this to perfection ,but to the reaching out for the best in me.Finding the best companion for a life time at the age of six ,Jesus.That is the one choice I made that has carried me through every high and every low life has had. Knowing Jesus keeps me from having to look behind my back, from fearing death or life. He loves me in spite of myself, thats a friend. He already knows a plan for me , knew from the beginning, and I just have to listen as He directs.What could be better? As I get older I find it so much easier to trust everything's going to be alright!!!!!!

just thinking

sorting out thoughts can be kind of like searching for a needle in deep shag carpet. you know you've come up on something when the pain starts. then what to do?

time lost

Sunday dinner with family ,homecooked, has seemingly become a lost art. maybe Ishould say lost tradition. Is it because we are too busy or have we decided family closeness isn't enjoyable anymore? Have we let the differences come between us? What is the definition of family today?Each one going his own way,reaching out for his "dreams"? disconnecting ? Life can't be lived fully without loving others. Nor can there be completeness without shareing the good and bad of family. Today our family shared Sunday dinner at our home,and it seemed so right.

control

Maybe the need to fix someone elses pain is fhe need to fix my own.

live or be lived

life has a way of living us or.....we choose to live our life. Touching others ,or not,in their joy or pain. Being available to hear the noise around us ,the cries to be noticed ,or not. It can be lived behind four walls ,alone ,saying this is life the way I want . Waking up to no voice to be heard but our own. Day by day wandering who or what might be past these four walls.We can live not noticing or being noticed. Crying alone,not to heard,no one knowing,life the way you want it?Or......wipeing the tears of a giveing up and lonely person just like yourself. Putting hope into a seemingly lost situation. Living past yourself ,your wants ,and seeing the need in someone else. Then laying your head to rest at night in peace ,knowing someone else will too.