my story

I feel the need to tell you how I have felt many joys and much heartach in my life,and have lived fully in all circumstances,good and sad.I learned and am learning daily where my weaknesses and strengths are, mostly I realize I have no real strengths of my own. When I was six years old I realized my great need for, and desire for a Savior.While playing church in the bedroom of our home, I knelt at the bed an accepted His call to my heart to let Him inside, and surrender my life,all of it ,to Him. That is the one decision I have never ever regreted,and can say has been my strength on all the roads I have walked.I have made other choices that led me into some dark places,I have had relationships that have broken me at times ,but could not destroy me. I've been walked on and stepped on so many times( that's a song I believe :)) I know what it is to hear the voice of defeat,to try to stop caring ,to stop loving,to want to pay back.I also know the deep relief ,the healing power of choosing to forgive.I have learned that as long as there is life in me , I will choose to be in relationships that will most of the time bring much joy into my life,and some times bring disappointment,sadness,and great struggle to my character.I will always be becoming someone more.I will be affected by life's choices,mine ,and choices those i love will make. But I will not walk with defeat,my spirit chooses to rise above and look at my losses as gain . Every road I have walked and will continue down will be my story,I will own it . And I will choose to see the beauty in the ashes.My story is so deep inside of me,some of it only I and my Savior will ever share,some of it will be for the whole of my world to see. I will only be so happy to say I have fully lived .