Is this how it is for real!?????? I'll be 60 in June and somehow I feel more lost than ever.,So not together. Gary wants to walk away from this life we've made home,and.... most days I do too.Today I feel like the puzzle pieces are thrown to the floor and there is no way to pick them up,much less put them back together again.I know,most of you blog about all the fun things in your lives and post cute pictures.I'm so boring.A new start sounds so wonderful and yet it also feels very uncertain,like unrealistic,too far out there.Change is coming,I know that,just hope it's for the best, for the rest of this life,and that somehow I will be something, or someone for others that will matter.I want to be all I can be,all Gary needs me to be; I want to see Gary happy! Then I will feel like nothing will be lost.